Holy shit - don't tell me it's been another 3 YEARS???

No way - it literally feels like I wrote a post on here like 4 months ago....

I honestly don't know what the truth is anymore - maybe i'm in a time warp - so ANYWAYS.

Hello! - it's 2025 - I'm not new here, which is such an amazing testament to my resilience as an artist and entrepreneur! Technically I have been "failing" all this time - which means I have been putting in the work all this time - which means I am just like every successful person who says "I was working and a nobody and failure for YEARS before I made it"....LIKE BITCH! I'm still here - which means - THATS ME! I can relate and Identify with that! Which is crazy because the only thing thats changed is having a little bit of a perspective shift. Whenever I heard a successful person say " I used to be just like you" or "I failed a million times and just kept going" - I would think that could never be me, because I didn't see myself as resilient and devoted, I thought if it would take me so long then I just wouldn't even try, or i'd give up before I made it.

But everything shifts when you stop seeing your failures as evidence of you not ever really trying hard enough - to - you've been putting in the work, failing over and over yet showing up time & time again - just like everyone who makes it always says. Me coming up here to see that my last post was in 2022? - is Proof that i'm well on my way to making it.

That being said - i came up here to brain dump about other things!

It's 2025 and I am actually in grad school...in LONDON...Getting an MBA. - Which is what I was trying to accomplish when I was 25 and I started Garbage Gal, and I was going through the crazy life & relationship things...and literally you can go back and read my blogs about that time - it was wild and literally I just went through a very similar situation - (I've been writing about and will be posting at some point) - BUT THIS TIME I ACTUALLY MADE IT!!! I took the loop and spiraled UP!!

YOU GUYS I DID IT!!! - OMG let me go get my post v-day roses right now! I'm so proud and in love with myself for this!

And still - thats not even what I wanted to brain dump about - I'm getting my MBA - and i've been telling myself all this time that I am going to dedicate my spare time to building a business - so when I get out of school i am already in a position to run by business and make money - BUT - I've been telling myself that this business had to be something more "serious" than my ambitions as Garbage Gal/ Lili LéWaste - it couldn't be my art - it had to be something that i didn't care about as much so if it failed I wouldn't lose my art.

WELL 1 - moot point - because i've failed plenty of times with my art and kept going anyways as i've already established - so its not like failing again would kill me - i'm a cockroach with this shit bitch - you need "LA ROACHE PUSSAY" to kill me bitch - and the only way to get that is by ordering my shirt and that would only revive me anyways - HEHEHEHE I am an immortal trash witch my pretties I just reduce, reuse, & recycle that shit my love - YOU CANNOT DESTROY ME I AM ***FAMOUS***!

2 - What if I am only using that idea as an excuse to hold myself back from my true power some more. What if that is not me thinking smarter - it is me thinking small. It's me thinking - well i'll make my money with a "serious" business because there is no actual way i can be as successful as I want to be with my art alone. What if it is me still holding the belief that I am not worthy of being successful by just being fully who I am?

And 3 - What if taking my art seriously is actually the BIGGER thing to do. What if my personal brand as Garbage Gal is what actually affords me the ability to have the funding to do the other unrelated projects. What if it's the other way around - and I AM the diamond. What if Investing in MYSELF is truly the biggest thing that I can do because I really AM Famous - What if I am Oprah. Famous people have fashion lines and other businesses because they are famous and they can invest their money & influence into other things because of who they are FIRST. They don't do the other things and then amount to being famous because of them on the side.

LOL - it's like I went into school with my "PRIORITITTIES" (New shirt coming out soon!) - all wrong!

I keep insisting i'm famous but then acting as if being famous would be just a hobby.

It doesn't work that way babe - Fame comes first and the rest follows.

xoxo- Garbage Gal