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Garbage Gal (GG) is my "Everything Bagel". 

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At the time I am writing this, i've just seen "Everything Everywhere All at Once" (HIGHLY RECOMMEND) - and for now; using the "everything bagel" reference is the best way I can sum this up. 

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...Ok, I'm definitely pushing the reference just so I can talk about the movie, so let me drop it. 

 

I am the "Sole/Soul" caretaker of a body with a very messy, chaotic brain. So, I created this website (or as I like to call it "mess-site") to try and organize and transform the areas in my life that I struggle with. 

      But I'm an artist, (and apparently a bit of an exhibitionist) so I gotta be extra and share it all with the world! 

 

Long story short - Garbage Gal is really just a fun little metaphor for shadow work.

It's about sharing my process of "Dumpster Diving" into the depths of my shadow to transform my life into something I treasure. My goal is to achieve my childhood dreams of living a life full of dance, travel, art and performance. 

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AND NOW here we are - I've turned myself into a living art project! 

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This website (and I) have come a long way, and have a long way left to go. The goal has always been the same, but when I started this I had a different vision for my future. One that was still founded on the principals of people pleasing and begging for acceptance. I lost that vision and had been aimless for a few years, not making much tangible progress. But I've kept the dream of Garbage Gal alive because I know that stagnancy is all a part of the process, and the reason I am "exhibiting" myself in the first place - is to show the truth of what progress looks like in the messy moments.

Unfortunately I f*cked around and found out - that sharing the messy sh*t when you're going through it - is much harder than it seems - because you are actually GOING THROUGH IT and don't have the spoons to share on top of it!  Lmao - so we like to criticize how what gets shared on social media is a highlight reel - but probably a BIG reason we don't see more people being real about their struggles is that since they are actually struggling they can't find the energy to share it even if they tried.....

*Cough* - Even if they tried to create a whole ass business around it...(me - *cough cough* - I'm venting and trying to explain that this is why I've been so-called "SHARING" for years - and have hardly shared anything at all lol - and now I'm making progress and getting somewhere and so I'm feeling better enough to start sharing again....yada yada - ok.   

 

Anyways, I'm  "Garbage Gal" because I like to document the trashy parts of life that we often hide away.  

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And...

Fortunately - I've been making some significant progress on my journey, and I can't wait to finally take this creative...uh...Dump. 

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That said, in order to reach my goal, I still have a lot of "trash to take out" in my life - starting with the old framework of Garbage Gal.

Originally , I was inspired by Shel Silverstein's poem - "Sarah Cynthia Sylvia Stout Would Not Take the Garbage Out" - and I'd identified 4 major areas of my life that I wanted to "clean up" and assigned those names to these "areas" and started regarding them as if they were their own people, and then I gave them more fun "trashy" names, with the intention that they would represent my different personalities and areas of my life being worked on. You can still read about the girls on my other pages -the sections of this website are still designed as little "bedrooms" for them.  

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Trashley's focus was health, Bagatha's wealth, Wastella's creativity, and Dumpfree's...everything else

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NOW in true Garbage Gal fashion - it is time for me to THROW that concept OUT. 

 I realize that as much as I absolutely loved that framework - I could never get it to work because the whole idea served to shrink myself into bite sized boxes. I was coming at it from a place of feeling like "Too Much" - so I tried to compartmentalize my personality and interests into different personas because I felt like I couldn't be easily understood as one person with multiple contradictory interests and complexities...Also - Yes, I am a work in progress - but - No, I'm not something that needs "Fixing" ....Also Also - I was trying to be anonymous and hide behind characterized personas. - And now I am less afraid to be seen.  

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NO MORE! 

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AND A LOT of this growth is thanks to BURLESQUE.

Lili LéWaste was born, and I no longer needed my other personas to hide.

 Lili is the Trash Witch Supreme of my Dreams! 

 

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