Galaxy Grimoire

Hello, Wastella here - It is time to start the Grimoire of the Galaxy - As this is - once again - the beginning of everything.

I've been going through a portal (once again - and again - I feel like I am always saying this and yet it's always true) But once again - this portal is more profound than ever before. This is the portal from maiden to motherhood. First of all it felt REALLY difficult to type that - and then afterwards I just went on a journey in my head about the actual "birthing" that I chose, and I look up and see it all staring directly at me in my tapestry. I've been long overdue for a good steamy spiritual "dump" (if you will) and I am finally on to it - I think typing this is going to be the way to go after all - its too much to allow my mouth piece to have its way with.

Anyways - it is the motherhood portal that I have been semi consciously aware of in my life recently. I have more to say on the whole story of this coming soon - but the spark notes is. It is around this time, I would be a new mother - but instead of birthing a child, I chose to abort and give birth to the galaxy thats been growing inside of me for way longer. (This is my truth, think whatever you want to)

The "YOUniversity" lectures in mysterious ways. (To be honest, I've gotten caught up in thoughts but i am finding my way back)

It is not lost on me that the energy and this experience of building a business this way in my life aligns perfectly with the time I would have given birth to an-others dream in my place had I stayed on that timeline. And now I am really stepping through to the other side and I've intuitively locked int he change through certain decisions. I find proof in the shift via "little' things - like changes in taste and what i am willing to try texturally. I can tolerate more now, and that is a little thing, but it is actually HUGE - I'm literally a new person. We know that like every 7 years or something we are literally all brand new or something? idk - but then we are also always brand new in every moment because we are always at a point 7 years from another...idk i've gotten off track.

Other big indicators of change - obviously I finally changed my hair. I have been changing my hair by putting cool things and extensions into it. But I hadn't cut it or colored it until now. I have marked my change fundamentally in the way that I look - also I'm like super hot right now - not just because of my new hair, but facial structurally - I look different - i like suddenly realize I actually HAVE the features i've always found beautiful in others. Like low-key i'm giving Tim Burton character but chubby and thats a whole vibe I never thought i'd see in myself lol - its weird.

I have started actually following the impulses i have to do things. Like that is how I am actually writing this now - instead of thinking my way out of "wasting the time" on writing - I am actually accomplishing my dreams by simply allowing myself to do things.

having my period on a half moon - signifying transition. Topics of snakes, butterflies and moths, SOOO many little things

I feel a sense of reconnection with different parts of my past. Different memories are resurfacing

(SIDENOTE: I think every time I hear people say this - I get nervous thinking bad memories come up - but it's really not always like that, I mean all kinds of memories - I mean just little things you forgot - its a sense like you are literally back on track with another timeline version of you that holds this certain point of view, that has access to these memories - because this version of you prioritized and remembered different things, and different things mattered on this timeline to get her to this point.)

Lowkey I've lost the inspiration to keep writing this - but I want to wrap it up by saying what I originally started writing to say in the first place and thats - I am going through a portal - its a biiiig transition, I have been revving up and preparing for it - it's here on the full moon in Sag tomorrow June 11th - I have already given birth - (to the galaxy) but I am now stepping into the role of mother for it. I am to be everything - I am to dedicate myself to it, I can not forget or abandon this creation at this point it is here and it is mine to protect like that of a child. (I know some will have feelings about this relation - but again it's my truth)....and I want to really celebrate and honor this transition in me with a ritual. It is a witchy Wastella Wednesday tomorrow, and my intention to nurture wastella is to really take care of my spiritual hygene on wednesdays etc - and anyways - tomorrow is special and I've channeled a component of the ritual I wanted to share - that sparked the actual START of the Galaxy Grimoire.

Now you know I am a scorpio. A few weeks or months idk ago - I saw a spider on my bed. I questioned what that meant - a friend mentioned low level scorpio energy - I was like: triggered, but ok. Then I let a spider build a mansion of a web in the corner of my window attached to some of my crystals. This web was tight and I never saw anyone home but I saw it growing. It became a thing to me that felt like we were co-living and the spider web helped protect me by keeping other bugs out of my room - and acting almost as a dream catcher. I'd watched a video about dream catchers and he said real ones are blessed by a spider goddess and so I figure a big web next to my head as I sleep at the corner of my window pretty much acts as a dream catcher right. So then my friend (That same friend who mentioned the lower level scorpio energy) - sent me a video this morning about the 7 stages of a scorpio - starting with spider, ending with Phoenix. Mind you - Meanwhile I have been trying for months to make a decision on my hair colors and what to do with it - how do I achieve rockstar hair status etc - I finally did something and the leftover dye inspired me to start painting a Phoenix/Peacock on my jacket. So I already started that. Also meanwhile spirit has been communicating to me LOUD AND CLEAR through other mediums on the internet (LOL - I know - but we just need to accept that that is how woo woo we are now - we have AI - weird shit is not that weird anymore) - Anyways - these messages have been very pointed and freakishly relevant so I know I am dialed in. Then here I am - I've been avoiding my journal and spiritual practice - and I open it up today because I feel this major shift and my hair is done - and I know that the changes are locked the fuck in - there is no going back - so I finally sit down in the rainbows through my window and open my journal perfectly to a page I barely remember writing - that separates the concept of the galaxy into divisions and gives a VALUE PROPOSITION of the galaxy as a whole. This is veeeeeery interesting - and I am getting a new download now - because just as this is my child and I am the mother - as I have learned through the relationship with my mother - it is JUST AS IMPORTANT - NOT to lose myself in the world of the childs and also nurture my own self apart from the creation.

It did not hit me that just because I chose myself to have a business at this time over a kid - does not mean that I as a mother either way - don't have to continue to choose myself first throughout the relationship anyways. Because it is incredibly damaging to the growth and development of a child, for the mother to abandon herself, and her own needs in motherhood - that is how you end up with an unfortunately burnt out, resentful, sick and sad mother. SO - no matter what you do, no matter what you choose to nurture, always nurture yourself first - it doesn't matter the relationship.

Back to the ritual - so ok so boom - big changes have been made, it's locked in - it's time to celebrate and here is the full moon coming up - I have new hair - I woke up the morning after dying it (yesterday morning) and immediately all my bad habits wanted to kill me. I hated the colors, I wasn't ok with the change - I thought I was going to have to KMS - I felt like I'd made mistakes, like the decision i made was for nothing...the fucking WORKS. - I threw a few legit tantrums (throwing myself on the floor and shit) Tried recording them - things went wrong - but I fought through and released some steam enough to then smoke. I got stoned, and then I decorated and fixed my hair, got ready as the new me - the energy 180'd - the death and destruction left as quickly as it came and suddenly I was struck with the knowing that "The changes are locked in - no bad habit can come and get me now - they are only visitors you know how to throw out" - There's no going back, there is no way to fuck up and go backwards - it is time to stop worrying that the past is going to get me - its gone.

Ok now REALLY - back to the ritual - so that spiderweb - suddenly I notice today the whole structure is loose. I think the spider has moved on - the web is floating and lifeless, but all the connections are still there.

SO - tomorrow morning I will go to the woods at sunrise and have a fire and do a road opening (RIGHT cuz when i opened the journal - at the end of the value proposition I wrote - "I need to do a road opening ritual" and then I have on the next page "Quantum Leap" steps by Mia Magic - lol.

So Idk all the details of the ceremony tomorrow - BUT - I plan to scoop the web up with an incense stick it is attached to and have the web like the end of a wand and then light the incense. It will signify both the destruction of the webs of connection towards my lower level ways of being, as well as an ignition of the webs and connections towards my highest timeline - the one that gives the most life to the garbage galaxy.

More to come.

Wishing You Well

X - Wastella