Is it safe to “come out” yet?

NOPE.

But although this title is 💯 bait. I don’t actually mean the metaphorical rainbow closet.

I mean, I built this website as a safe space for me to express myself without constant critique of my character. AND YET - the only eyes that fall onto it are the eyes of those whose critique ACTUALLY wounds me.

Yes, this is in public, yes this is on the internet - no it is not a private diary where I could actually “be safe” - SO YES I KNOW people, if they see this - CAN & WILL JUDGE, and when they do - bring it on - because I Know that no matter what anyone says about me. NO ONE’s words or reactions to me can hurt or affect me as bad as my family’s.

So to my family:

I know you’re watching. So first of all - get a life.

Let me have MINE and leave me the fuck alone.

Because contrary to your belief - I want my life.

I just want it to BE FUCKING MINE. I want to be allowed to exist AS I FUCKING AM. I don’t want to be treated as if I am flawed, or a criminal, or criminally forever fucking naive for popping out your pussy.

I will no longer try to understand. I will no longer try to help. I will no longer try to explain shit to you. It will never matter, it will never land, it will never help a damn thing.

And I’ll no longer ever limit myself and my expression to fit whatever frame you try to view me from.

I will scream, I will cry, I will continue to post, and express and embarrass myself BOLDLY.

I’ll put this shit on BLAST.

Because this isn’t, and I AM NOT FOR YOU. I’m for myself, and I am for the others like me who similarly are not for anyone - but themselves.

Fuck with me if you want to - but you better bring ear plugs.

Because I wont swallow and let all my anger, frustration, humiliation, pain, vindication etc. sit and FESTER within my body like the rest of you.

I know how to take the trash out.

Xoxo - Your loving Daughter & Sister - Garbage Gal.