It's something small that I have been afraid of for a while. I scheduled maintenance on my car....
Why the hell would I be afraid? Naturally you would think that I own this car and maybe it's a piece of junk and I was afraid because I thought it was going to cost me out the ass.
Nope. Its a lease and it's under warranty so there was no fear that it would cost. So what could I possibly have to fear? This is GarbageGal so things are obviously not that simple. Lets take a quiz.
I was scared because....
A) It's a lease and my car is filthy.
B) It's a lease and my registration is out of date.
C) It's a lease and I am 2.5 months behind on payment.
D) It's a lease and I'm not entirely sure I have car insurance.
E) It's a lease and in California you are supposed to have a Cali License to drive if you live here and I've been here over a year and still haven't gotten my Cali state License.
F) All of the above
CALL THE COPS! Yes...all of the above. Fuck me right? Right... I mean the fear of being called out on all of those things is pretty understandable. What is not understandable is WHY THE FUCK I am in that bad of a position in the first place. Welp - because I just can't help myself I guess. No because like this fear - I have fear that prevents be from taking care of all of those individual parts of the problem. How? I'm scared that if I get my car cleaned, I will have wasted money on something unimportant that I should have used more wisely. I am scared that if I get my registration up to date they will ask about my insurance. I am scared that getting insurance wont be as easy as the commercials say and I won't be able to pay for it. How am I not sure if I have any coverage....because i'm an idiot and I don't know how things work so I think there's maybe a 5% chance I am covered through my parents somehow but idk how that would be possible - I think I am just trying to make myself feel better. But regardless if I figure it all out then I become responsible for fixing it - which I should be responsible enough to do anyways. But speaking of paying - I'm scared my car will get taken away or something because right now I just can't pay. Life is crumbling people seriously. And why haven't I gotten my license? Well because I have to retake the tests and I am scared that I'll fail, but I'm a good driver so while that probably is the most sensible excuse I have - it is still irrational as fuck... and I also worry that the DMV will ask me about all of these things as well and I'll be screwed.
So I did something. I was scared that I was going to be called out on all of those things. But I did it and got my car serviced! How'd I get over my fear? Funny you should ask because it's not like I was responsible. No - it's because my fucking AC stopped working and I live in fucking southern California so it literally became life or death.
So what have I learned?
A) I am a total failure and someone should report me to the police. (lol jk please don't!)
B) Service people don't give a fuck and just do their job.
C) The same is likely for all the other problems I have to address.
D) All of the above. <---------- This is the answer.
Thanks for listening. Please don't report me!
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